Tuesday, September 27, 2005

Pay Attention Jennifer

So, I'm trying to figure out the hunger continuum - here's how it goes for me:

*starving - hungry - empty feeling - not hungry - satisfied - full - stuffed - exploding*

My goal is to stay in the purple zone - to never really get hungry, per se, and when I do eat, stop once I'm not hungry anymore, occasionally eating until I feel satisfied - but never full. And certainly never stuffed or exploding. Figuring this out is an art! Once I get good restriction it'll be easier, though I'm doing pretty well at eating as if I already do.

I'm paying attention, for the most part...but it's easy to forget I am Borg...case in point: Today I finished lunch and had a co-worker come in to chat for a few. I absentmindedly grabbed my water bottle out of my bag (where I'd put it so I wouldn't drink too soon after eating) and just started chugging away because I was thirsty post-workout. After about, oh, maybe 6-8 ounces, I realized what I was doing - just about the same time I started to feel like a bloated whale, which lasted for about an hour. Thank god I didn't drink more than that! It just goes to show how so much of this is really about breaking habits.

I don't really know how many more times I need to drink with food or too soon after to learn, but I doubt this will be the last time, alas. Pay attention, Jennifer.


Anonymous said...

Isn't that the story of our lives? Breaking habits? I think this experience is proof (not that you needed it!!) that overeating is MENTAL! It always frustrates me when people think it is so easy and "you just have to focus and do it" We literally have to reprogram our minds! There is such a fine line between satisfied and full! Sometimes a matter of five minutes of waiting!! When our minds have been programmed for thirty years to eat until we are mentally satisfied it is hard to listen to our body....head hunger? stomach hunger? AHHH! Thanx for sharing your experience. You are on your "weigh" to a great "mental breakdown"!! KEEP GOING!

Jenn said...

Thanks for the nice comment Joanna! It helps so much to know other people 'get it' - since so many don't :(